it's how much i love you

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 13:28:22 GMT

Haven't posted here in AGES. haha. Just back here because I logged on to leave a message for Trish darling. (:
I kind of miss Secondary School days when everything wasn't so complicated.

Well, Luke's pissed me off for like don't know how many consecutive days.
He insulted my Dansong Tang Yu Zhe!
He insulted my Calvin Chen Yi Ru!
He insulted my Jiro Wang Dong Cheng!
Therefore, he INSULTED ME!

I mean, it's not like he doesn't know what I'm like.

Promos coming, need to study. But I can't moptivate myself.
Okay, Teresa Elizabeth Koh, think of the concert, think of itouch and STUDY.

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 09:10:26 GMT

you know, what, you can do whatever you want.

I mean, it's like as long as _ is there for you. I hope he's talking to you right now, because i really cannot cope with this any longer. All the mixed up emotions.

Because seriously, this is too fucked up. Like, whatever i say won't even go in anyway, so I won't even bother any longer. Because you just do this and say you are going offline. Obviously you don't want to hear anything I say. So I'm not even going to try. And really, what's with all the bad attitudes?

What, you're peeved? you're not happy? WHAT IS IT? i mean, i know you all are not very very close, but wth. Even if you had a bad day, don't take it out on me. whatever whatever whatever.

Friends? What are they? Do they really just take advantage of you? Do they really just be there when they need you? Or are there true friends who are always there, in good and bad, are there the people who will trust you, implicitly? Or?

I don't know what/who to believe anymore.

Darling, Soulfriend, AhBu, Love

Thu, 29 May 2008 10:59:43 GMT

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with a song / movie.
3. Tell a random fact about you.
4. Tell a first memory about you.
5. Associate you with an animal / fruit.
6. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7. In return, you must post this in your own LJ.

Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:22:52 GMT

im officially abandoning this blog and leaving it here to rot. so people link me on:

http://fairytale-worlds.blogspot.com

erm, may occassionally be back here to post random stuff. but major posts will be the oter side. :D

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 09:20:27 GMT

sometimes, i feel like a plaything.

when i was depressed about ________ and i told ________ about it, she was like: oh, okay. and i was like omg. you mean she just said that? thanks yp, vicky, avril and most of all, KRIST for cheering me on when i felt bummed.

oh, XIE ZHIZHONG YOU ROCK! my gosh, he's like the older brother i never had. he's been cheering for me when i even sounded like snappy with him on facebook la. and he's over there cheering me on. plus, he helped me loads with all his advice for jc. :D

I LOVE YOU TO BITS GODBRO! <33

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 10:39:31 GMT

first things first;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASLYN MOH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA POON!

today was fun lor. :) got to school and then passed sharmaine the rafflesian. gave jaslyn the hing i prepared for her. i love her!
went for classes. english was kind of boring. PE was floorball time! fun la! physics test, i can just flunk la please. chinese was just irritating. now comes the fun part!

bird and me brought jaslyn upstairs then ah bu and jaslyn and me went toilet to change. brought jaslyn downstairs. yan ping and me hurry in front to see what happen. then they bring jaslyn then they were like, wait! clara! so li jie went to find clara and then close their eyes put stupid hats on them and make them stand ont he chair. sang birthday song. presented jaslyn with SBF SCRAPBOOK! awww... she cried. how cute. WE LOVE YOU JASLYN MOH!

had rest of lessons. then after school decided to join SBF for hutting after all. walked to CP with yilin and jas. laughing all the way thanks to GOH YILIN. haha. met SBF. and me and yilin won the bet! high-five! went to pizza hut and ordered. li hui joined us and yp and jas keep suaning me cos she read my sms-es. wth. haha.

left after all that. yp and jy got high on pepsi. HAHA. then they started saying teresa also got exp soon! then i was like: WTH?! haha. topped up card and 156-ed home.

I LOVE SBF! REMEMBER THIS?

LOVE YOU SBF!

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 11:45:47 GMT

oh, we foursome rock!

lunch was amazing today. seriously, we should do it more often. it was made even more amusing when godbrother was sitting just a table away. when i got to macs, three of them were there alr. and i didn't even notice theodore sitting there. waved to joshua and mark and sat down. Timothy finally noticed me after that,

they left just as we started eating. waved and then talked with foursome. didn't even notice theodore leaving and alex sat at his place. haha. saw jeremy, jonathan, aaron, sherilyn. haha

aaron came in and suddenly when we looked up, the drink was all over the floor. haha. aaron was adamant and insisted it wasn't him who spilt the drink. *shrugs* well, who knows. stayed until 3.

kristen kept insisting me and luke should go get boyfriend/girlfriend and we were like: righttttt. then after that, she went to ask if we had a crush on anyone and it sort of became a leetle awkward. who knows why? atmosphere tensed up and yeah. then we had to talk about eugene who said stuff about me and luke and it became even weirder! haha.

left soon after that and we saw Chew Chor Meng. Luke and me were like: Is that who we think it is? and then we started laughing. i insisted he leave me in front of macs and go get his bus. he was stubborn at first but i finally shoved him in the direction of the bus and he started walking.

i think they're planning a little get together. either his house or movie. not sure how my mum is going to react to that. DAMN! XD
and she hasn't even met luke yet sooooo.... i don't know if can go his house. haha.

LOVE YOU FOURSOME!

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 10:13:13 GMT

today was last day of mission. last part of mission was real amazing though they should have given us much more time. :P

so they asked us to write a butterfly to one person who:
1. you quarelled with - to reconcile
2. someone whom you were quite close yet drifted apart. - to rekindle that friendship
3. someone in class you don't really clique with

well, i was thinking about it. maybe, if 3g had been there i would have chosen jolene (it's a big maybe) but this time, since among those classes, there wasn't anyone in particular that i had quarelled with, i was thinking about whom i had drifted from and my thought wandered to :Joan Chen. haha. it seems we talked more in sec 1 when we went for enrichment together than we did these past year in the same class. haha.

thinking about it, i think i still would have chosen Joan. jolene's been dissing my attempts to reconcile since forever. haha.

so i wrote the butterfly for her and she was real sweet when she recieved it, giving me a hug. :D love you joan chen! :D

and then we took papers and wrote for other friends. but there was seriously no time. decided to do for SBF first since heckers already have their 2 year present. :D but i only had time to write for Jaslyn, Li Jie and Yan Ping. sorry to the rest of SBF! :) Yet, i think yan ping was really sweet. she's a real darling. although she keeps suan-ing me about.....

and of course i left for home after that, after all the customary goodbye hugs that SBF has. :D and i don't know, but SBF lifted my spirits so much that I felt so much better especially since i was kind of down today. and maybe yp noticed? haha. but her note was super sweet.

okay, enough talk.

THANK YOU SBF FOR BEING THE SWEETEST THINGS! LOVE YOU! <33

back to work. bleahx XD

Thu, 10 Jan 2008 10:08:08 GMT

hello. i know i haven't blogged in a while.

i just wanted to post pictures. don't really feel like saying anything much.

it was quite boring really. went thru make up and stuff.

ade and me! <33

oh man....

cindy and yan ping

SHARON?!

me and yan ping

akina and cindy

ah bu!

yilin, avril and me!

and AMK grassroots.

Yilin, Bird, Cindy, Akina, Sharon, me, Jiaying, Yan Ping

YUM

you're my sun in the storm

yilin and sharon

SBF LOVES MR TAN!

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 07:12:53 GMT

hello.

okay, that funny feeling is gone. gosh, yesterday just after that emo post, somehow, my godbrother was being amazingly sweet, not like i told him about how im feeling or anything. but he was really saying the sweetest things, it's amazing! :D

oh, i love my godbrother, he totally rocks man.

tuition is like soon and im sort of sian-ed. gosh. somehow i can't stimulate my brain enough to write.

and my brain's all confused.

this is an emo post

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 11:00:32 GMT

okay, suddenly it feels like im not wanted la. altho, yes, christmas card was sweet and all.

okay, maybe i shouldn't have done the stupid blog hopping. i never learn my lessons. everytime i blog hop i get depressed. what's the point of that? my goodness me.

anyway, it feels like im not wanted there and all. so im sort of like a bit depressed cos even after the card and everything. so was joining choir the right option for me? cos it feels like im sort of extra and all. and like, yes, my godsisters are angels and my godbrother really rocks but how about the rest.

okay, im going into fantasy mode right now, so i don't have to think about these things.

bye.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 04:42:11 GMT

wow, this christmas just brought along so many surprises.

THANK YOU LUKE HO for being so sweet. it was the best present i ever ever recieved. thanks for the card too! It was real sweet and a real surprise. :D

THANK YOU JONATHAN LEE for the cookies. It was real sweet and i appreciate it so much!

THANK YOU GABRIEL CHEOW for the card. It was real sweet and it meant the world to me.

THANK YOU BENNY SEETOH for your card. It was amazing and such a surprise for me.

THANK YOU MARK TAN for the card. It was amazingly sweet. Especially when I didn't expect anything.

THANK YOU LAURA AND AUDREY for the card and gift. It was sweet of you all. :D

THANK YOU AMANDA AND ERICA for being super nice ever since i joined choir. It's amazing. LOVE YOU!

THANK YOU JOANNA for being damn sweet. You've been damn nice ever since i joined the choir. thank you for the card!

THANK YOU DANELLA AND NATALIE for the cookies. It waqs real sweet. :D

THANK YOU NICOLETTE AND VICTORIA for the present. Didn't expect it and it meant the world to me. ;D

this christmas just brought along too many surprises. :D

hecker outing 12/12/2007

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 05:13:18 GMT

how nice are hecker outings.

yesterday, tan shi han woke me up at 10. saying that we're meeting soon. so i rushed around the house like some maniac, resulting in forgetting my water bottle. met shi han at tp mrt and went to meet avril at orchard. teasing shi han is so fun. :)

met avril. went to kinokuniya and avril sat somewhere to read which was a good thing. shamaine and grace arrived and we set up our plan. Left her present in a corner and shi han brought her over to look at books. then she thought it was a suspicious item and refused to open it. I almost laughed thanks to grace see, poking her oh-so retarded face out behind avril. haha. left kinokuniya. shopped a bit for christmas present.

swensens-ed. how fun to tease shi han when she was the last one to get her food. haha. all of us were tempting her la. haha. and next time if she eats crayfish pasta, the waiter won't know what she wants cos she'll ay CLAYFISH PASTA. oh, how hillarious. left after that.

walked to wheelock place and the rich rich grace see bought a crumpler. I WANT!! HAHA. and it's the crumpler i've been dying to have for years. haha. wth. windowshopped somemore. sharmaine and me were looking at iPod accessories while shi han and avril were mesmerised by the incredibles show, not knowing i have the cd. haha.

walked to wisma atria and window shopped for clothes. then mrt-ed home. couldn't stop laughing with sharmaine, grace and avril. haha. probably embarassed ourselves. picture damn blur la. haha. it's ong race's blog. too lazy to upload. :)

it's hong kong tmr and i can't wait! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVRIL!

confusing christmas

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 07:12:39 GMT

christmas has never before had me feeling this way.

i'm confused thanks to everything that has happened. haha.

and mum didn't help matters. :) presents!

people, don't expect huge presents okay.

so what do i feel? everything's muddled up. but i think you're SWEET

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 08:11:56 GMT

omg,

i can't believe you wrote that about me. i mean, i didn't expect it. i thought you probably didn't even notice me on stage can.

and you just MADE MY DAY!

if only you knew how i feel. if only you felt the same way. all the if onlys in the world. confessing would probaby make us drift furthur apart. I'd rather remain as friends, talking to each other more and all.

I hope our friendship grows just like how i want it to.

i want to shout it out to the world : I LOVE YOU, OH SO MUCH ____________!

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 14:24:13 GMT

concert's over. whew! (i guess)

anyway, i'm thinking too much again, it's like i'm sort of extra in choir and all. although nat and erica are the nicest around. and dan and nic are nice. ;) i mean, it's like i'm super extra cos i just joined and they've known each other for years and years. bryan still has ling kang what. andrea's got amanda they all and it's just weird.

and somehow cat class sudden;y seems a whole lot better. cos of luke and all. but of course he'd never join denis' choir. too stressful, or so he says. cos it'd be fantastic if he could join the choir. i'd have someone to go to when anything happens, a is always the case. when i feel like crying during sessions, or when someone gives me that pised off face that's telling me i'm too slow.

but he'd never do that. and i shouldn't ask him too. cos it's what he wants that matters.

i still don't know if i regret joining choir. maybe it's cos i joined when everyone was like sort of stressed?

ah, whatever.

THANK YOU LUKE HO, JONATHAN LEE, TAN SHI HAN AND AVRIL SHECK FOR COING YESTERDAY.IT MEANT THE WORLD T ME.

and you'd have changed everything if you had said hi. as much as i hate to admit it, i think i do still like you after all.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 10:23:40 GMT

the best thing happened! IPOD VIDEO ROCKS LOR. haha.

THANKS TO AUNTY PENNY for giving me the iPod!

amazing isn't it. and me, who thought she'd never get an iPod until she started working. haha.

tmr is the concert and i'm N-E-R-V-O-U-S!

Fri, 30 Nov 2007 12:27:49 GMT

hello.

4th december is approaching and i guess i'm sort of nervous yet excited at the same time. *shrugs*

but emotions running high. not just in church but sometimes at home or whatever. like the previous emo post. i bet the person in question never even read that post.

anyway, of course there are the nices people in choir. THANK YOU TIFFANY for taking time to meet us and help us with the songs we needed help with. THANK YOU JOANNA for being soooo encouraging! now i've got to think about Tiffany's question. haha.

and with everything, i'm still glad I joined choir. :)

4TH DECEMBER COUNTDOWN! 4 more days!

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 13:55:13 GMT

people, pardon the emo post.

so it was just a: when i'm bored, so i email you. if not, it's jsut a drop and go thing. sorry, but maybe i shouldn't trust people so easily anymore. i thought I found a friend in you and all. and if you see this post, please don't take it personally. cos i really wanted to be friends with you, (okay, i still do want to be good friends with you). It's just i thought we'd be those email buddies again after your o levels. seems to me, your excitement is not as strong as mine eh? sorry. but maybe i'm in a bad mood and from every angle, everything is just half empty. so if you read this, and still want to talk to me, email me.cos i thought we were really good email friends and I really wanted to talk. to tell you a lot of things. get things off my chest. but did i misjudge or something? i don't know. It just doesn't feel the same anymore cos we used to exchange twice daily and now it's like a week, one email.

okay, sorry for the outburst. sort of feeling lousy cos my mother told me off cos she saw bryan's email and then i get a dissapointingly short email when i've been looking forward to his email for days. I even thought my computer was crap and that it hanged. so i'm in sort of a foul mood.

byebye. i'm off.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 14:33:58 GMT

i realise that im the most pathetic person in choir.

everyone else has friends who can't wait to go for their musical cos they're starring in it. for me? half my tickets go to the sisters. (not that it's a bad thing) and the only friends who actually bother to try and go is: Luke and Jonathan.

so what does that signify? what does that make me?

so i'm expecting family. and 2 friends. OH, THANKS LUKE AND JONATHAN! :D

and BRYAN:

CONGRATS ON FINSHING O LEVELS! HEAR FROM YOU SOON!

so who's pathetic? ME.
so what's new?

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 09:48:55 GMT

and how i love SBF!

they're damn sweet la. HECKERS AND SBF, YOU'RE THE SWEETEST THING THAT'S HAPPENED TO ME! :D

THANK YOU SBF!!!!!

and sorry, it's a short post. i'm cheered by the videos. but... im feeling sick.

THANK YOU SBF AND HECKERS FOR MAKING THIS BIRTHDAY A MEMORABLE ONE! <333 YOU'RE THE SWEETEST THINGS!

HOW I LOVE YOU ALL!

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 07:52:31 GMT

okay. yesterday was sort of fun i guess. :D

got to aloha loyang at 8. first thing was watch star wars, revenge of the sith. apparently, joshua's an expert on star wars and marie and audrey don't like star wars, so they had absolutely no idea what was going on. so we had sharing after that about good and evil and all that. haha. had chicken rice for lunch. short break and all.

had game: round the robin? catch the flag? haha. split into 3 groups. guys one group then alto and sops. haha. it was kind of hillarious. first round was guys against sops. 6 people in a group, 3 have to be blindfolded, another 3 give instructions. However, the catch of the game was, apparently, we can only make animal sounds. guys chose chicken, sops chose dog and altos chose fish. haha. guys instructions drowned out sops so marie and andrea resorted to english. Denis was like: "wah, the dogs so smart." haha. second round was guys against altos. this time, altos drowned them. gerry bumped into gabriel who in turn bumped into natalie who screamed in his ear. he ended up shouting, "Who scream in my ear?!" haha. later found out, nat actually thought gabriel was a tree! 3rd round was sops versus altos. how fun. altos got a bit lost cos sops drowned us out. hilarious really.

washed up, a little sharing then was watching vids again. could tell everyone was dead bored this time. gosh, everyone started drifting off to sleep and all. haha. how hilarious. after the video, we started rehearsal. oh, PANIC BUDDY'S BACK FROM BOSTON! :D

learnt choreo and sung a bit. did like super a lot of times. i know andrea wanted to stop. haha. dinner was catered. after dinner, we hung about and all. denis played bridge with ling kang (sp?), bryan and benny. haha. it was hilarious just watching them.

kor daniel picked us up and sent me home. :D

okay, today was sort of lame. cos i think i also think too much. yan ping was SUPERRRRR PISSED off during maths today. and maybe i think too much, but maybe it's got something to me. lucky kelly was cheering me up and he tickled me pink with his N Maths! (heh) had lunch with my besties and homeward. :D

THANKS KELLY YONG FOR MAKING MY DAY!

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 05:43:29 GMT

so im back from boring old school. lucky kelly was entertaining me. :D he's a great ole entertainer, i swear.
and like i point out oh, so often, how fun are gatherings/ dinners when you sit next to kelly?
oh, so entertaining. you won't be bored at all. :D

okay, i've got retreat tmr and kelly says he's trying to come to promise. sad that braces buddy has overseas school trip really. :( but yen hui should be going i think. :D oh, yayness. i love my cousins. <3

and how cool, i love heckers and all too. :D

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 10:17:39 GMT

okay, here's what really went on yesterday, :D

table-d with tengs, kelly, justin, jie denise and kor chris. sat between kelly and yen lin, and thankfully not with the younger boys. they would have driven me insane. so the boys all impatient for food to arrive. then jokes all around the table. and our table, coupled with kor nick's table, easily could be the most noisy one around. kor nick even thought my brother was sec one. woah. first timer!

joke 1:
kelly: justin, ask the waiter where's the ice? i ask for ice water. never mind. later ask, ask for water with ice

joke 2:
kelly: justin, ask for orange. they bring you the drink you say, i want the fruit!

and these are just a few examles of how wacky kelly can be okay. includes imitation of yen hui extracting bones from her fish, he even held it above the candle. and facial expressions when he ate bamboo stuff. gosh, it was such a funny night my stomach hurt from all the laughing. amazing really.

THANKS KELLY AND ALL FOR AN AMAZING NIGHT!

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 05:43:31 GMT

yesterday was wedding dinner and kelly was cracking us up with constant outbursts of "Orange juice!" and stuff like: "the shuttlecock is blocking the screen." we could easily be the nosiest group in the place, coupled with kor nick they all. haha. and stuff like no ice in the ice water, it was a lovely evening. altho kelly kept kj-ing me about *ahem*.

so pictures for the evening were really nice after all.

doesn't he look like some zombified person?
and the tongues. :P
and the boys are having fun. :D
and it's METAL MOUTHS! :E
and how gay are my cousins?!
HOW I LOVE THEM!
:D
LET'S HAVE A BRACE-Y SMILE!